I
Don't
Have 
Time 
For
ANYTHING

ahhhhhh
I'm going CrrRaaAaZzzZzYyyYYYYyyyyYyY

This weekend was UNreal.  After my last exam it was party prep time and since it was gorgg outside we got meat to put on the BBQ.  All the "in crowd" were outside and I'm so scared of them so I made Sophie the "promoter bunny" (like puck bunny except for promoters ahaha) coe with me to BBQ.. The we were all outside playing catch, lying in the sun, drinking beers.. you know the usual.  Then we prepped for our grafitti party which was pretty good... got some great grafitti on my shirt.  After the party we went Dt to van goghs 1st floor.. havent been there in aggeesss! It was pretty fun.. I was pretty drunk lol. freeeee drinkkkss!    
Saturday was great too.. we went outside early and sat in the sun with beers and magazines and after about 2pm everyone eventually came outside and we had the usual bbq and drinking again.   That night was stefan, spina, citty and co's keggar.. that was fun.. and then it was time for the STAGE!    I freaking love that place.. they made the smokers patio into a drinking patio and made a bar out there and EVERYBODY was there. I had SUCH a blast... and I wore my new white dress from guess.. very cute.  Sophie was being a promoter bunny all night and E & T were shitfaced... just like me. RETARDED!  Went to davies' for AP (after party).. drunkenly told him I want to try blow. lol. He is the only one I can reliably ask to have my first time so whatevss.  Was flirting with one of the 'promoters' friends all night.. he was obsessed with saying my name I was like okaayyy... randommm... but his package was HUGE.. I'm talking like bigger than I've actually EVER seen in my life. hahahaha unreal

SUNDAY  =   420

most amazing day of my life .
Woke up hungover as ever.. everyone was getting so sikked for chancellors block party.. we started it off early.. like 12:30ish.  All of the usuals.. so many people brought their old disgusting couches outside and we bought like 6 blunts and rolled one instantaneously..  bought a 6 pack too and drank that while we sat outside and socialized.. There were SO MANY PEOPLE THERE!  I was soo surprised! There were at least 300 people on chancellors way it was crraazzzyyy! Around 3:30 we left for johnston green and got some McD's right before.. SO GOOD
We got to Johnston green and it was spectacular.. tina was running around with the 4-footer making everyone hit it.. sooo funny.  saw everyone and got bakkkeddd out of my mind.  

Best Weekend I've had in a while..  This week looks like its going to be amazing too.. SO WARM ! and I have the house to myself and sisters.. yessssss!

xoxo
you know you love me
GG

ahaha

well, this has been one of the unluckiest 24 hours of my life...(aka. from 10pm yesterday - present)
1. i find out the guy I like seriously doesnt like me in that way and proves that by trying to woo another ugly fucker
2. this guy did a card trick and i lost $1
3. the power went off in the middle of the night and i had previously set my alarm for 7 and i wake up to a flashing clock that says like 2:34 and its light out and im like WTF and my sister is like..dont you have to be at the hill in like 10 minutes aka finding out it is 7:50

4. Finding out that my team cannot go to Alpine for the morning because of the foot and a half of powder and there are major safety precautions at risk

5. falling twice in the powder under the MAIN CHAIRLIFT

6. going to barracuda bowl (a steep hill with powder and its fun to push ppl down and slide down oneself, get into snowball fights etc.), climbing on a fallen tree trunk that is over a mini river and mounds of powder, proceeding to hang upside-down hanging on for dear life…trying to jump down off of it into the powder so I didn’t die, my snowpant getting stuck on the trunk, me proceeding to hang from the trunk by that leg, snowpants ripping, me falling into miniriver and some powder, going on to hitting my head on the rocks…cannot feel my jaw, huge cut on chin, cannot feel knee or arm…and having to bottle ever bit of emotion and ache inside b/c my group was watching the whole thing

7. the power at the club switching on and off for no apparent reason also causing the chairlifts to stop soooo many times

8. getting back to the chalet, bringing my dog for a walk, trying to show him some love by ruinning for a little while, he starts running really fast, I say, “Boomer, slow down! I’m going to slip and…” proceeding to slip and slam onto the HARD ground seriously injuring my hip and right leg and right elbow, finishing with, “fall.”

9. and now, the cable isn’t working and I have nothing to do…plus I am alone in my chalet

Boooooooooo-urns!

there is probably more, im just having a brain blanc...but you get the point

so i love you

and you love her

but she has a boyfriend and another crush..and not to mention that we are really good friends

it's not fair

i don't want you..    i want you to want me

i guess our only future together is a future as friends..

Note to self: invent a time machine to go back to the beginning of the year and do better in school. and if that doesn't work, 100% on every assignment and test from now to February should do just fine to raise the average.    good fucking luck with that..

fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk 

it is so annoying how people go around saying that they are failing and that they are not going to get into the university of their choice, one of them being me.  the difference between them and me is that I am not complaining just to make people feel like we are all in the same sinking boat, for me it is fucking true.  you are all crying over an 85 average..if i had an 85 average i would be crying with joy. I work so freaking hard, yet I cannot get anything done ever.. and nothing ever pays off. nothing is ever good enough and it is not fair.. i wish people who were getting an 85 average knew they were without a doubt going to get into the (canadian) university of their choice. so they should shut the fuck up and stop complaining about bullshit.. it makes people like me feel even worse. just fuck the fuck off. fuckers.

HAPPY CHRISTMAS!
MERRY NEW YEAR!

nice xmas, got a few good things..excited for new years. coming back to the city for it.

just a little poem...

collingwood is rainy just like my face
thinking about all i had hoped for
recieving the dreaded envelope
having my worst fears confirmed
with a 77, peace out mcgill

yet so close

1.5 DAYS

TIL SCHOOL IS FINISHED!! woot